friendshippery

it is of note, that time becomes an enemy when one is trying to accomplish something. then hours blow by; relaxation becomes a testament of infidelity to one's intended purpose. something to feel guilty of. spending time with people whom have separate intentions with their lives becomes different, burdensome. which is no fault of theirs, or of one's own....it simply is. it's not that they have lost anything or you have gained anything which makes for incompatibilities, it is just that they break focus, shattering the continuity and organization which slowly, gradually, begins to emerge in the mind when something of great importance is being dealt with. would that our minds functioned a little differently, and that it were not harmful, routine-breaking, to distract yourself for a time with alternate interactions. maybe sometimes it actually is beneficial to do this. but what m notices more often than not is that it whips a destructive wave through mental progress, dis-jointing one concept from another, forcefully and also somehow sleepily.

the social nature of the mind, or at least of the mind in society, also pulls these same strings. often the biggest distraction is merely thinking of distractions, not actually achieving anything in the meanwhile. human relationships are sometimes so intoxicating (for blissful better or venomous worse) that they stand firm, obelisk-esque, immovable by the brushes and brooms of the imagination (facebook is the worst!). it is impossible to retreat from one's mind, so instead focus has to be cultivated from it, nourished, proactively aligned in sunny/shady spots, with/without water, depending on the nature of the intention to be achieved, the plant to be grown. what do you want your efforts to grow into?

friends are like the hard, metal typeface on a typewriter. if you look at them, in all their combinations and commonalities, you will see what you can accomplish and what your limits of expression are. you are the inked ribbon that can bring these things together, you can unearth and bury them, and in the process create a reality for yourself, a circuitry which channels specific energies which then conduct the processes of your life, your liberty. it is your liberty, your choice, in a sense, which ultimately defines the end product of your time-usage....which sounds obvious, but hopefully you will see what matches has insinuated here. to take responsibility for your life and to wheel the helm whichways you would have it lead you.

you are what you can express. and if you have no outlet for a particular expression, if you have some unspoken whispers rattling around inside your frame with nobody to express them to, then they have no means for growth, no outside to lend them to so that they can truly be analyzed, inspected.

"each friend represents a world in us,
a world possibly not born until they arrive,
and it is only by this meeting that a new world is born."
~ ana nin

if you are my friend, and you are, then i do appreciate all that you have given me.