synchronicity

it is about time that matches covered a topic that has been prodding at him and a few of his close peoples for some time now. allow him to get some momentum into this one, if you will. have you ever noticed something, anything, and known that it was more than it appeared? have you ever netted a thought from the air in front of you, and had it prove undeniable, either by way of close-to-immediate factual concretization or just plain logical and emotional admission? have you felt something deeply? have you toyed with chance, pushing a hand in a card game that you just 'had a feeling' about, completely ridiculous by all accounts but which played out to be a monster?

do you trust your life to your feelings? do they speak to you in sleepy whispers; do they stomp and stamp like a great chained beast? every so often something strikes us, solid and swift as a skipping stone. usually it is in retrospect that we make the connection between what is actually happening somewhere, and what we feel...we isolate the emotion, turn it over as though it were the only thing running through our mind at the time. thought is a bit more complex than that, though....there are often in the neighborhood of five concepts tug-of-warring within matches' mind, so it would be difficult for him to say when or which one necessarily takes precedence at any given time. ouch, just poked self in eye. there are moments when feelings seem to merge with what is transpiring in other places; when thoughts spring up unaccounted for in your progressive tabulations between eyes-open and eyes-shut, and you just know something that is going on elsewhere.

you could call these moments 'coincidences', but that would seem to take something away from them, wouldn't it? it's easy in the hustle-and-bustle to pawn such inconsistencies (actually, they are apparitions of consistency...) off, and move on within your sphere. but don't they make you ponder; don't they haunt you when you lay down to sleep? how can one only believe in four dimensions, with such irregularity? granted, they are few and far between. granted, there can be no proof that they were not, in fact, mere coincidences. he supposes it comes down to a degree of faith, in whatever you make that out to be.

antimatter has had at least one extremely potent instance of said occurrence in his lifetime. one, but probably many more that are just less poignant, less pronounced. one, when it comes down to it, is probably all it takes....to shatter the illusion of control, of somehow being audacious enough to think that we are perceiving everything that is going on in this maddeningly-intricate atmosphere. people live functionally, for the most part. but in his particular experience, the thought was such an abstraction, such a deviation from his normal modes of behavior and thought (his style of moving throughout the world); and the event that it pertained to was so very jarring, so definitive, that he cannot simply stamp it with a waxy 'coincidence' seal and post it express-mail to the history books. he is not done with it yet. not nearly so.

he remembers from when he was reading string theory books, that there is an avenue of the idea which basically says that there are invisible, intangible links between certain things in the universe. certain things being the theoretical 'strings', but even so, why not clandestine connections between other things, like minds or emotions? it is not so much of a stretch. anyway, these tethered objects, they may exist on opposite sides of the known universe, but still their movements, for whatever reason unknown to us, exert a mechanical influence upon the movements of the other. they are mirrored, in a sense; acting jointly though they are separated by unfathomable distances. this, is of interest to m. this, makes some sense, in its own unique and nonsensical method. a connection, beyond the confines of the current paradigm. what else then, can be connected?

a decent example of an unexpected connection, you ask? well, this one is explainable, but nevertheless, interesting enough to scribble down. in a perfectly ovular room, there was a party going on; let us call it a business party. a man got fired the next day, and he could think of no likely explanation for his notice of termination. he had performed dutifully and cordially in the eyes of all people who had any such authority over him. but unbeknownst to him, he had made a mistake...he unloosed his tongue, poking fun at one of his higher-ups to a mere scullery-maid, who giggled incessantly at the comment. little did this man know, that he stood exactly upon on of the ovular room's two focal points (a geometrical pivot of which there are two of, situationally). the other of the focii, at the precise moment, was occupied by the president of his company, silently contemplating the boorishness of the guests and simultaneously, his martini olive. the vocals of the first man projected themselves into the geometry of the room, and being a perfect oval as it was, redirected themselves to converge directly upon the president as he unthreaded the olive from its tentative toothpickery. thus the man's deviant intentions were made unintentionally public, and he was doomed to go on the rest of his days in utter befuddlement as to why he was released so callously.

true, that example was more for the telling than its relation to the actual topic at hand, but it makes a notable point....there are unlooked-for and unperceived connections between any given set of things, and just because we cannot explain them in the moment does not rob them of their validity. matches is of the opinion that if you feel something, truly, that goes beyond observation or explanation, that such occurrences should be treasured allthemore and certainly should not be dismissed.
faith is very rarely a bad thing, and often it is much more applicable to, just about everything, than we give it credit for. mattress is a believer....he just needs to figure out what in. or does he? perhaps that isn't the way it works~
it wouldn't be the first time.