if its broke; fix dat

i've been being a little whiny bitch to myself lately, ever since my ipod broke. i need tunes at my side, in my step, quickening and modulating my rhythm. i haven't gotten a new one yet...i wanted an ipod nano, but then i realized i could get a 'touch' and have internet and apps as well (and built in speeks), but then they were too expensive. but then i decided i should just get an iphone and hack it for T-Mobile, but then iphones were waay too expensive, but then i found a decent deal on an older model, but then i thought, i know matt and he wants the newer model, but then i found a used ipod touch for a good deal, but it was an older model, and didn't have the speeks or the much-improved battery life, but then i almost bought an iphone but the bastard on craigslist committed verbally to me but then sold it to a coworker instead, but then i found decent deals on older touches and am wondering how much battery life and speakers really matter to me, if i can get a 16GB model instead of an 8GB.

fuck.

i am overwhelmed, and in the time i have spent trolling craigslist for this shit, probably could have made enough to pay off whatever it is that i end up buying (still no verdict). but its made me consider a few things. stress-level is a very important factor in purchasing. deals are only worth finding if you have time to waste (which i'd like to think i don't) and if you need to absolutely scrap for the money (which i don't necessarily). and i could have been listening to my sweet, sweet strawberry jams by now, if i had just gone ahead and bought something during an online black friday sale from apple~

second. kierkegaard makes mention about a distinction between 'choice' and 'absolute choice'. these things are supposed to be resigned to the realm of philosophy, and i am completely tainting bold ideas in my application of them to consumerism...fuck it. i always tend to think that choices i make are absolute choices, because i hate being wrong and going back to cover tracks for shit that i did incorrectly. but a purchase, esp from craigslist, is not an absolute choice, in any sense of the word. if i buy a goddamn touch from someone and get even a halfway decent deal, chances are it wouldn't take me two seconds of effort, if i didn't end up liking what i got, to re-list and dispatch it to someone else who perhaps did want it. i might even make a little cash on the side doing that. so. stress, begone. you ain't worth mah time.

fuck.